It has been some time i never been here.
Now, i am here again.
What to say what to write?
He left, after 1 month memories.
I got drunk because of him.
And this will be only once in a life time.
I won't do that for anyone anymore.
And now, 5 days more to CNY.
Everyone is excited and happy for tht.
But what about me?
I felt happy but until two days ago i knew what my dad scold me at home.
I feel so heartache and feel so sad.
I really don't know what can i do to satisfied him.
I planned to go back for 3 days only and i know it's short.
But what can i do?
Is this what i want?
You said i never think of you.
I did!
But you will never satisfied with it, don't you?
You will only blame me.
Scold me.
And you said you gonna hit me if i go back.
why you never change?
Why?!
Sigh.
This morning, i woke up from a nightmare with tears in eyes.
What kind of nightmare?
A nightmare that happened before.
Hit me, hit my family.
Seriously, i am scared to go back again.
I don't know what will happen.
I don't know what will happen.
I don't know what will you do.
Feel so stress feel so tired of all of this.
It is really tiring.....
